Does this usually happen?/VentPost

I love to write and love to talk even more... and you would think at one of the most emotionally and mentally... trying, challenging, hurting... times in my life, I'd have plenty to write about, but for some reason, I'm having writers block like a mofo. I have a going list of ideas, but everytime I begin to write I get three sentances in and .....................................................................

THIS HAPPENS...I can't think of anything else to write (I'm typing especially hard right now) I'm trying, but I got nothin'

I could write about the night I had in Harrisburg that didn't start until I got a plate of greens, cornbread, turkey, rice and meatballs (randomest combo ever...kept wanting sweet potatoes and baked mac to add to the mix)

Or I could write about the mess my house is in and how I have no motivation to clean, organize or throw out. Procrastination is the sole culprit here

But then there is my insane (yes, because I've done the same thing over and over and expecting the same result) relationwhreck with Josiah's dad... that stretches me at every turn..I, for some reason, keep expecting some magical change to take place and responsibility, respect and consideration to suddenly take permanent residence in the space currently occupied by their exact opposites

And let's not forget the most important subject of all, my struggling realizations with my spirituality and how I'm trying (and this is hard to type, but it's honest) to figure out how to put all my trust, faith and dependency in God, whom I feel so far from right now

On top of all that is all the things that I don't even realize I'm keeping in, holding on to and blocking from my memory...

On the upside, my relationship with Josiah has been going really well, except he's learning how to lie to get what he wants, i/o just to not get in trouble..he conned me into staying with his cousins for a movie night by telling me his dad was going to pick him up, which I couldn't confirm because his dad didn't pick up the phone, so being as though the story was so believeable, he stayed. He never talked to his dad....OH! and work is going pretty alright too...first 90 down...great feedback and some really bright yellow carnies on my desk after the meeting!

DEEP SIGH OF....NOT QUITE RELIEF...

BLOG SHARE: FIRST DOWN

A forward thinking, self-motivated, passionate friend of mine, started a blog recently called "First Down: Moving Forward, Never Backwards."

He offers insight, evokes thought and encourages momentum. Keep moving forward. It should be our motto in life.

If your husband is tired of all your mommy blog friends, he can visit First Down and feel like he has a little something to call his own....

Happy Reading!

Something About....Me!

I was featured on Buffy Andrew's Blog for her "Something About" section. I got asked a lot of random questions..but they really got me thinking...and I definintely would need to be able to read peoples minds, be invisible and fly..if I were a super hero...and as of this current time, there are only 2 types of cheeses remaining in my fridge and I would have dinner with Mary J and Maya A for the record...



http://www.yorkblog.com/buffy/2011/10/10/something-about-sharee-mcfadden/

"The List"

Here it goes: I was in and out of a relationship for eight years and during that time, I've learned what I want through experiencing what I don't want..and after typing that, I realize that that's pretty much how a lot of people learn to figure out what they don't want..I guess this is that whole...live and learn thing I've always heard about. The learn part, as it has turned out, is harder than the live part...

I'm trying to figure out what I want/need in a relationship/man so I've come up with this list..keep in mind, it's a compilation of things that I've realized at the intersection of: who I was, who I am, who I want to be, and who I'm meant to be: (not in any particular order...except number 1!)

1. Lover of all things Jesus
2. Loves kids, or if that's a stretch, at least my kid!
3. Funny
4. Insightful
5. Thoughtful
6.Handsome of course
7. Responsible
8. Daring
9. Affectionate, but not too much
10. Playful
11. Likes Transformers
12.Likes Transformers II
13. Likes Transformers III
14. Wants another Transformers movie to come out
15. Likes watching movies
16. Enjoys traveling...more for pleasure, not so much business
17. Can allow himself to be ambitiously lazy
18. Likes to read
19. Likes to cook
2o. Good at cleaning
21. Enjoys doing laundry
22. Passionate
23. Wants to be in a relationship
24. Cultured
25. Excited about life

So there it is..the first installment in a series of ... um... more lists...

WORDLESS WEDNESDAY

MomMe Time DIY

I absolutely love this! So Warhol!!! I'm going to do this with Josiah...for some reason, my diy projects never come out as glamourous as they looked on someone else's post (like the soap crayons of 2009), but we'll give it another whirl...don't know how I feel about spending all that money on crayola's, just to melt them, but oh well..I know Josiah will have an absolute blast doing this..I might enjoy it a lil too.....The best part will be the quality time with my baby! I'll be sure to upload pics!!!!

Awesome Holiday Gift Idea!

I'm def using this idea! Found on Homework! Check out her blog, really cool and crafty! All you have to buy is an enlargement of a photo if you need one, double sided tape and some organza ribbon!

Get comfy...again..

So 2011 started off with a bang..sike, idk..because I don't remember a lot of the beginning of 2011...

Jan. 1 year in Amway,.one year of haters...but I'm still a business owner

April 2011 Happy 6th Bday JoJo!!! Perform my first Christian Standup Comedy set

July 2011 Start my new job

September 2011 Open for Comedienne Q-Stiletto of B-more at the Valencia Ballroom in York Pa! Great response and feedback, Join H.O.O.D. Helping Offer Opportunities and Direction a community organization advocating for change, as the PR chair!

October 2011..start blogging again...

I thought this year was a lil more exciting..but based on my obvious lack of recollection, it seems it must have been rather uneventful..

Oh, well..Thank God for life!! 2012 will be on and poppin'!

I have a thing with odd numbers..maybe that's why the year seemed a lil thrown off!..idk..

Here goes...get comfy...

Kindergarten Grad! Logos Academy

Josiah's 5th Birthday Party. Matey's LAND HO! The cake was the bomb, but can't find the pics!

My friend Amber's Bacholerette Party in Philly..I was in front of the Philly Art Museum..quite a jump...
First day of Kindergarten! Image courtesy of Poetic Stills Photography (my lil sis)

I cut all my hair off..it wasn't off Jan 2011..thought it would be curly

My engagement ring..this kiss actually did start with k
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So, it's been almost two years since I've actually sat down to write a blog post. My, how much has changed. I guess, the best way to do this would be a simple timeline

January 2010- I join Amway as an independent business owner! and little do I know that I also would start on my journey of self-discovery and self-growth

January 17, 2010 - I re-dedicate my life to Christ...again, but with a genuine and sincere heart and mindset to live for Him

Febuary 8, 2010- My on and off boyfriend slash baby's fava proposes to me...I look like crap, it's 10:30 at night so I can only call a few people..all of whom keep the convo short bc they are sleep, about to go to sleep, but mostly I think because they can't believe we're engaged....it was actually kinda nice..since we had always played around..literally..pretended to propose to one another, so I thought he was playing..until he pulled out a ring, which i had no idea he'd bought...and like my dramatic self... I ruined the original plan bc he had planned dinner and everything at the rest. where he'd given me my first gift, but something happened, i got mad (prob over something small and we wound up not going..hence the 10:30 proposal time

April 2010 - My lil man turned 5 and we have an awesome pirate bday for him...

We go to Philly for my friend Amber's Bachelorette party Diva 2 of 7 to get married (Diva 3 wedding next may)

May 2010..Feel like something happened, but I don't remember quite what it was

June 2010 Finally got a new job (unemployed from Dec. 09 til June 14..worked hard for this one..Persistence is key!) later that month...I Broke off the engagement.... more on that later

August 2010 I'm the Featured artist at Word Wide's ArtOfficial Open Mic night! I do stand up comedy!

First day of Kindergarten for Josiah at Logos Academy Christian School!!!!!

September 2010..My job is pretty bootleg..but I'm thankful for it

December 2010... I turn 26 and....look back over 2010...Brief summary: I joined a business that everyone doubts,except for me and am excited that I've been doing something for almost 1 year! I re-dedicated my life to Christ, I got engaged and then broke it off. I became a school mom, sucked at it the first year (still warming up this year too)Got a new job with some awesome people, but HORRIBLE management, so I spent a year looking for a job in the PR field (gratefully, I have a great job at a strategic marketing firm now!)

I noticed it was getting a lil long..soooo..2011 timeline and recap tomorrow! I WELCOME YOUR WELCOME BACK COMMENTS BELOW!!!

Back at it again!

WOW!!!! So much to write..but since it's 5 of 12, I'll spare my eyes and hands bc I've been in and out of sleep all day and am achy all over...(sniff sniff, sniffle sniffle)

Anyway, just wanted to do a quick lil something....so here it is...

(That was the quick lil something above...)

Til next time! nite*